Such a slacker...

I know. I just don't quite have my act together. I am trying. We are busy...a fun kind of busy. But, I still struggle. Nothing out of the ordinary after experiencing tragedy, but life as I know it is just a little different feeling these days. Pray for me. Pray that I will grow stronger each day. My faith, family and friends have truly carried me while I am missing Baby T. He would be almost 5 months old now...such a fun age. I have been going to a grief group for a few weeks. It has really given me a new perspective. Maybe I was too hard on myself, thinking that I had to act like nothing had happened. Maybe (since I am a people pleaser), I wanted people to think I was not hurting so they wouldn't worry. Or maybe I took everything they suggested and tried to do it so I wouldn't rock the boat. The grief group has really opened my eyes that it is okay to be sad...to have feelings that other people might not understand. Overall, I feel like my God has loved me and given me lots of grace and forgiveness through this. I have not been the wife, mommy, friend, daughter, sister, etc. that I usually am or strive to be, but I am so much closer than I was just a month ago. And for that, I am thankful.

But...on with the things that we have been up to. Maybe I will update several days in a row to catch up :) !! That would be such an accomplishment.

K started taking gymnastics. And oh my heavens, does she have fun! It has been such a great gift for me to watch her sweet smiling face doing so many fun tricks. Every day of the week, she asks when it will be her day to go to her class. She has already learned so many things...beam, bars, tumbling...all on a 3 year old level of course.

K-Bel is just busy getting fat. Yep...fat! We love it. She has struggled through several infections over the past couple of months with her gastrostomy button, which is frustrating. But we couldn't be happier about her growth. K-bel has gained about a pound a month over the last three months. She is over 20 pounds now. I know...still very little (not even on the chart), but to us, she looks HUGE!! K-bel is still not small in her presence though. She is mighty. She is firey. She is sassy, but darn cute. She talks like she is three years old and she loves to boss everyone around, especially F.

F is doing really well. I have noticed lately that her vocabulary is really improving. She is still my tough cookie...always up to something. But, she is really getting big. We love some of her quirks so much...you can't have a hug without a kiss, stalling before bed by telling EVERYONE in the family night night atleast once, asking for a drink while she climbs into her high chair, and announcing each morning when she wakes up that her hair is 'grouchy'. These are just a few things that we love about F. Oh...and you can't forget that each time she hears someone say 'swiper, no swiping', she will say, 'or swoopy no doopy...haha'. She is SUCH a funny girl. C...my sweet C. He is doing so well, as always. He loves kindergarten way more than I love being away from him all day. What ever happened to half day kinder...that would be great for this momma. I have had the treat of taking him to school on Wednesdays lately, so we have started a tradition that we use our McD's gift card to get some breakfast first. So worth it for my boy to remember our time together. Sometimes I just wonder if I am really good enough for C. No one is perfect, but he is perfect for me. Such a great kid with a great heart. He started playing youth basketball and Hubs is the coach. It is so fun to watch...we have really enjoyed it so much.

Hubs is hanging in there...busy being the best hubs and dad ever. And on the side, he is doing his usual teaching and coaching. We have really enjoyed doing a Bible study together lately through our church. That is something we have missed over the past few years. We are a blessed family. Have a great week!