As a little girl, I remember flipping off of our furniture all the time (you know, back in the old days). I guess this is still a fun trick for the youngsters! :) 
One of our very favorite people here in our new hometown has an incredibly generous heart and showers our kiddos with lots of love and gifts (Happy Birthday MM). One of the things that she did for our family was give us a family pass to the zoo in our area. 
Roar...
I know. I just don't quite have my act together. I am trying. We are busy...a fun kind of busy. But, I still struggle. Nothing out of the ordinary after experiencing tragedy, but life as I know it is just a little different feeling these days. Pray for me. Pray that I will grow stronger each day. My faith, family and friends have truly carried me while I am missing Baby T. He would be almost 5 months old now...such a fun age. I have been going to a grief group for a few weeks. It has really given me a new perspective. Maybe I was too hard on myself, thinking that I had to act like nothing had happened. Maybe (since I am a people pleaser), I wanted people to think I was not hurting so they wouldn't worry. Or maybe I took everything they suggested and tried to do it so I wouldn't rock the boat. The grief group has really opened my eyes that it is okay to be sad...to have feelings that other people might not understand. Overall, I feel like my God has loved me and given me lots of grace and forgiveness through this. I have not been the wife, mommy, friend, daughter, sister, etc. that I usually am or strive to be, but I am so much closer than I was just a month ago. And for that, I am thankful.
K started taking gymnastics. And oh my heavens, does she have fun! It has been such a great gift for me to watch her sweet smiling face doing so many fun tricks. Every day of the week, she asks when it will be her day to go to her class. She has already learned so many things...beam, bars, tumbling...all on a 3 year old level of course. 
K-Bel is just busy getting fat. Yep...fat! We love it. She has struggled through several infections over the past couple of months with her gastrostomy button, which is frustrating. But we couldn't be happier about her growth. K-bel has gained about a pound a month over the last three months. She is over 20 pounds now. I know...still very little (not even on the chart), but to us, she looks HUGE!! K-bel is still not small in her presence though. She is mighty. She is firey. She is sassy, but darn cute. She talks like she is three years old and she loves to boss everyone around, especially F.
F is doing really well. I have noticed lately that her vocabulary is really improving. She is still my tough cookie...always up to something. But, she is really getting big. We love some of her quirks so much...you can't have a hug without a kiss, stalling before bed by telling EVERYONE in the family night night atleast once, asking for a drink while she climbs into her high chair, and announcing each morning when she wakes up that her hair is 'grouchy'. These are just a few things that we love about F. Oh...and you can't forget that each time she hears someone say 'swiper, no swiping', she will say, 'or swoopy no doopy...haha'. She is SUCH a funny girl.
C...my sweet C. He is doing so well, as always. He loves kindergarten way more than I love being away from him all day. What ever happened to half day kinder...that would be great for this momma. I have had the treat of taking him to school on Wednesdays lately, so we have started a tradition that we use our McD's gift card to get some breakfast first. So worth it for my boy to remember our time together. Sometimes I just wonder if I am really good enough for C. No one is perfect, but he is perfect for me. Such a great kid with a great heart. He started playing youth basketball and Hubs is the coach. It is so fun to watch...we have really enjoyed it so much.
Hubs is hanging in there...busy being the best hubs and dad ever. And on the side, he is doing his usual teaching and coaching. We have really enjoyed doing a Bible study together lately through our church. That is something we have missed over the past few years. We are a blessed family. Have a great week! 
C celebrated his 100th day of kindergarten last week. Wow...yet another milestone that I wasn't ready for. I have not prepared myself for all of these big kid things that happen. But, C is embracing it all! He had a fun filled day and we (all the girls) joined in on the fun. I made cupcakes for the class and helped blow up balloons. The classes came together and counted 100 cupcakes and counted to 100 and then let their balloons fly into the sky. Of course, little K is already so grown up that she participates in everything that C does anytime that we are at school. She loves it. 
Santa brought some Mr. and Mrs. Potato Head toys for the kids for Christmas. The girls have really enjoyed playing with them...and entertaining me with them as well. I love my babies. They are truly the greatest kids and being with them is such a gift to me. My family brings me such joy. I am a very lucky lady.
Not long ago, we decided to venture out to an area museum. And we had so much fun. We were able to have so much fun even though our hearts are still struggling. It was such a blessing to get out of the house as a family and enjoy each other. 
We played in a sound area. Hubs and C talked to each other through a pipe from opposite sides of the room. The kids ran up and down a giant piano. 
C showed off his long jump skills in the exercise room. And K-bel cheered him on from her daddy's shoulders.
We visited the room of the old west. C roared at the buffalo and we tried for a hook 'em in front of the longhorns. Look at K...haha.
Can you find our circus? We are in disguise... 
We really had so fun. Hubs drew a great picture. The kids made life size bubbles (F's was the best). And C and I sat in the eye socket of a humpback whale. 
Recently, I have realized so much more about life and family. And our day at the museum was good...really really good. We will have to go back.
